Meet Gladys…

Time flies swiftly! It has been almost eight months now since I joined the project and still I’m here…in the sleepy town of Saint Bernard! 

You knew how terrified I am joining this project I knew so little about but as always, I am a little bit stubborn in pursuing paths that I could say “less traveled”. Who would have wanted a job in a disaster-prone locality anyway? Who would have wanted to experience great “earthquakes” and hundreds of aftershocks in just a week? Who would have wanted to live in a far away municipality, with no malls, no movie houses, no Jollibee and McDonalds if I craved for? Who would have wanted to be far away from close family and friends?  Who would have wanted to be far away from you, my HONEY! Oh sweetie, I am terribly missing yeah!

I must admit that several times did I want to quit. I had countless sleepless nights… And my golly! … how many times did I cry myself to sleep and much more…. pressures, pressures, pressures, WHOAh! A lot of pressures!!! But still, after eight months, I’m still here! I survived and still surviving!

A lot of times, I’m really down, really down… thanks to some bottle of beer and a few sticks of cigarette, to the calm, blue sea, to Ate Kookie, Janice and Ritchie and of course to you Willy!!! Hahah! You made my life a little bit easier! … with lesser “mingaw”, I should say…and for that I should really be thankful! Friends really are “life’s precious jewel”.

Four more months to go before the project ends… There are still a lot of things to be done yet so little time left… I’ll try to stretch my remaining powers and energy to make it through…I can’t promise that I will be able to make it but I will try…will really try and do the best that I can. I’d rather be a fighter than a loser!!! That is how I’d rather put it to make me be inspired!

So to you Gladys, good luck!!! Smile a little, and try to find time to enjoy life! Life is not all work after all! It must be enjoyed!!! As a wise man puts it “Live life to the fullest!”

Nothing beats the pain of betrayal…

When we trust, we also expect the same from the person whom we are trusting. This is true in all forms of relationship, be it in friendship or romantic relationships.

Just recently, I felt how it is to be betrayed…The pain seems so unbearable that until now, I could hardly get it out of my mind. At first I would like to scream, yell, punch, and curse… How could someone be so insensitive, selfish, and unreasonable… How bad it felt learning that I am fooled by her, that my acts of kindness and understanding towards her will just be reciprocated with doubts, and wicked thoughts. Never did I thought that we will come to this point; that the damage that she has done will be this deep and painful… that my dignity and integrity will be put to a test by all her false accusations… I should have known it…I should have been more careful… I should have been more cautious… I should have not felt this way…I should have not been suffering… I should have not been wounded…

Things / situations in life have its own reason… I think I would just like to think it that way… What is more important now is that I have learned my lessons… through a rather painful learning experience…

The wound may heal longer than it should be… but one thing sure, it will be healed with just a scar left behind to remind me of maybe one of the greatest lessons there is in life…